Last night I woke up around 4am to go pee. Once I got back in bed, I felt a little flutter. First reaction-- F.R.E.E.Z.E! It so small that if you move, you'll miss it. So, I lyed as still as possible for about 15 minutes. I even caught myself holding my breath as if that was going to help!! Idiot. Sure enough, it was that sweet little baby of mine kicking away! Ah! I loved it. I kept waiting on gas to slip out, but it never did. So I'm positive it was my precious doodlebug!
To feel the kick was such a blessing. I have been praying like a mad lady the past week or so, specifically for God to let me know that everything was okay and to put my mind at ease. I have almost felt guilty for second guessing him and worrying so much about this baby. Whatever happens...happens. I forget a lot of times that I just need to pray about things and hand it over to God and actually trust him. I'm not some religious zealot, but I do believe in the power of prayer! So....last night when I felt the flutter, it was an answered prayer!! I had a Dr.'s appointment this morning, which went well by the way, and I was having a little anxiety and fear yesterday thinking about what if I go in and they can't find the heartbeat, what if I've had a missed miscarriage and never knew it, what if, what if. SO many things ran through my head. So last night, all my fears were washed away. It was simply amazing!
On to my Dr.'s appointment. It was short and sweet. Probably the quickest I've ever been in and out of there. Got to hear the heartbeat again--140's! She found it immediately with the Doppler and was a bit surprised. Being only 14 weeks, she said its usually more difficult to find baby. Everything went better than ever! I am so very thankful right now! After worrying and fretting over the potential for something to happen, I feel so relieved and humbled by today's great news!
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